Recently I discovered that a beautiful old friend of mine has gotten a taste for drugs and is chronically out of alignment. At first I felt such a wallop of emotions I scarcely knew what to do with myself: grief, anger, profound sadness, disappointment, frustration, despair at being able to help, all coming in a tsunami that threatened to topple me.
Luckily, I’ve been practicing what I preach and doing my conscious play tools every day, and often several times a day, and have been feeling really grounded, steadily delighted and in flow with All That Is. So when I discovered this, the pain was so unfamiliar that it couldn’t get any real traction and pretty soon I decided to pull out my Adventure Bag and sift through to see what tools might help me come back to grace on this subject.
After I meditated I realized what was bothering me: the playspace I shared with him is not truly open for me because he is being dishonest about his own experience and so no true intimacy could bloom. That was where my wobble was. I felt unsafe playing with someone who wasn’t willing to own their choices. I must be expecting or focusing on that to bring it in so I headed over to Grid land and started a grid for how I wanted to feel in all my shared playspaces.
Free! Loved, safe, trusting, all there, no holding back, healthy, high on life and Source connectedness! Drawing in clear, high up freedom seekers, blessed. Clear, Sure, Happy, beloved, joined, satisfied, in flow together, riding Ikrans like in Avatar.
I’m so grateful to the Travel by Yes team for helping to co-create and evolve the Conscious Play Framework. You’re seriously the best team a girl could ask for. Nathan you outdid yourself on this project! I’m so excited to be seeing so many more people thinking of how they can play in and through something rather than fixing. I’m seeing people gently gathering up the nuggets and insights from their playful epiphanies and lovingly packing their adventure bags and I GLOW with mama bear pride.
So much love to you beautiful players!